Six Today

Lucy turns six today, a most amazing little lady I love with all my heart and always will. Nothing will ever kill the love I have for all my daughters. She is one of my three special princesses and for as long as I live will have a massive place in my heart.

It is amazing how things come flooding back to you, how some thing just bring back memories. Unlike birthdays before this one has been so different for me. I found myself a few days ago listening the suite of the film “Forest Gump” and I found my mind wandering back to the time Lucy was just a small baby when I use to play the song in a rather large silver Renault Espace. On one occasion we were sitting outside a post office in Leeds and I can remember being so happy. When I listened to it recently I just was amazed how things have changed since then.

If you have followed the blog I haven’t seen Lucy since before the summer, despite a letter I sent giving possible dates. I haven’t heard a thing, nothing at all. All I can hope I will see her one day because without that thought part of my life will have died and with it a big part of me. Living without a child is hell on earth, and something you think of everyday. You can’t escape the knowledge that your children are some of the most special people in your life and for all the right reasons. I can’t wait to cuddle her again and hear her voice and Christmas and the year ahead won’t be the same without her.

What I hope for the future is to see her again, for everyone to make an effort so we can be together again. I love her so much and her loss hurts me at some point everyday. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her, wondering if she has lost her first tooth, how she is doing at school, and more. You can't forget the people you love.

RIP Lou Reed

An icon of the music industry that has died today, the legendry front man of the Velvet Underground, Lou Reed passed age 71.  Probably one of the most influential artists of his generation who together with his band had a influence on the punk, glam and alternative rock movements of the 1970s, '80s and '90s. His songs were covered by the likes of REM, David Bowie, Nirvana, Patti Smith and many others.

 
He loss will be a great lost to the music industry, but he has left us amazing legacy for future generations in the form of his recordings, both studio and live, and in the countless interviews and documentaries about himself, the band and the music of his time. As a solo artist he recorded 20 studio albums along and will be remembered for songs like Perfect Day, Walk on the Wild Side, Sweet jane and many more, as well as the singer of the Velvet Underground.

Beautiful Stamford

One of the gems of South Lincolnshire has to be the beautiful town of Stamford which is close to the boarder of Rutland and a must for anyone that is visiting Rutland for a Holiday or a short break. I'm just going to let the pictures speak for me on this occasion.

It truly is a lovely place and the architecture is beautiful as are the churches and the shops. You can spend a day there with ease and their is plenty to do and look at in and around the town. It a place I return to time and time again and each time I love it more and more.

Celebrity Big Brother Summer Winner 2013

Well it is the end of another summer season of Big Brother and it all ended with the final of Celebrity Big Brother 12. As usual the show had all the twists and turns you would expect from the show with task like the battle of the sexes with the female members of the house going up against the male members in a series of funny challenges. 

As you would expect the house wasn't quiet and there were a few arguments and outbursts the worse resulting in a warning being given to Mario Falcone for slapping Sophie Anderton while play fighting in the garden. Then there was the occasion where Carol McGiffin received a formal warning from Big Brother after using the N word and another warning was given to Ron Atkinson when he said to another house mate "You're not carrying a bomb with you, are you?" because she had jumper over head in a fashion that made her appear like a Muslim female.

In the end the winner was Charlotte Crosby, who for those that don't know is English reality television personality who is known for her role on Geordie Shore. She entered the house on Day 1 and was crowned this series' winner on Day 23 and gave us together with the rest of the house mates gave us 23 days of entertainment night after night.

Timeless

Sometimes you can find yourself in place in life when you think that at last you have found what your are looking. Something so magical that the world seems timeless and what you have feels like it is going to go on and on forever.

Then later you discover it is all an illusion and what you thought you had was nothing of the sort. In the end you are left with memories of the good times, but even those become tainted with the feelings of the present. Life just shatters dreams and those moments when things seem magical are just that, just moments. Moments that you were glad to have but in another way wish that had never happened in the end, because the pain of their passing seems so great, and the only conclusion you can arrive at is that nothing goes on forever, and like everything around us it just dies and withers. Nothing is timeless not even time itself.